Friday, February 23, 2007

The End

I’m done.

I’ve had enough.

No more.

I’ve quit.

I can’t take it.

That's all.

It’s over.

I’m back!

What did you think I was going to say??

Yeah, it was short-lived, but I’ve done a lot of thinking over the last two days, so much I could barely concentrate during class (but hey – if it’s not one thing, it’s another!). On my way home yesterday, I took a drive down one of my favorite roads – windows down, music off, foot constantly in the gas… just me, the wind, the road, and a Camaro I almost hit going around a curve (!). For me, driving = thinking. I thought a lot during that drive and today about this blog and my internet addiction (not to be confused with a porn addiction by the way). I’ve come to the conclusion that this blog isn’t the problem. I just need to learn when to click ‘shut down’ on the computer. Idling this blog won’t help with that much, probably hurt if anything (that probably doesn't make sense to you but it does to me in a twisted way). I’m hooked on this blog (and others) but in a good, therapeutic way! =)

As for my internet addiction, let’s say something happened yesterday that could be equated to giving a drug addict several hundred kilos. Yep, finally got DSL. Ouch! It’s blazing fast too! I’m doing pretty good with fighting it so far though. It’ll be a work in progress, but I can do it.

So I’m back quicker than I even expected. I never saw this lasting a month or anything – maybe a week or so – but I never expected just two days! Reading back over my post, I made it sound like I was going away for a year!! I don’t think I could do that! I’d be in the nut house if I didn't have somewhere to let it all out!

On a different note, my confidence has been constantly going up lately … to the point that some of it may be coming out some time soon. But we’ll all just have to wait and see. I’ve got a few tricks up my sleeve I may be trying (or doing – hehe!) and it’ll all depend on how that goes. I don’t know about it all right now, but when your mom asks you about your straighter and how to use it on her hair, somebody knows more than they’re letting on! ;)

Thanks for all the kind comments during my super-short hiatus!

PS: Tomorrow there's a chance of tornadoes here!! What's with the crazy weather lately?! Last week, we were in the 20s, 30s and barely even in the 40s. This week, we've had highs in the 70s and 80s and now tornadoes!! What next? I don't want to know!

5 comments:

Jack said...

Hey SlyD!

I'm glad you're back.
It's not how long you're off the blog, it's what you did in those 2 days that counts.

As for coming out, don't pressure yourself. Just make sure the time is right for you.

Do you guys watch Ellen? You may want to ask what they think of her. Just to get a feel. Lately she talks a lot about her girlfriend. She's hosting the Oscars on Sunday maybe you can ask them then?

Have they seen Brokeback Mountain?

Just a few suggestions.

PS I know it's 4 am. For some reason I couldn't go back to sleep.

I'm going to try again.

PPS if you want to know more about me check out the category "walking in my shoes" Let me know what you think.

Anonymous said...

O no! You're now hooked on speed! (DSL - LOL!)

I have cable and there is NO going back. I'm sure you feel the same way with DSL.

I'm glad you're back, but we all need to learn the truth of what you say. There are times we need to "just put down the mouse and move away".

I think it all comes down to one of my basic philosophies of life - "moderation in all things". Keep your life balanced, Sly-D!

Of course this philosophy does not apply to internet porn! LOL!

As always, you know you have my best wishes for your "journey". May it all go well for you, my friend!

Spider said...

Welcome back...

Now FASTER than ever!

A Bear in the Woods said...

I know I have to get DSL, I'm just fighting it as long as I can.

Brad said...

You'll learn more discipline and control by forcing yourself to moderate your computer usage than by shutting it off altogether.

Welcome back.