Thursday, May 03, 2007

Quick Notes

- Last Sunday marked one month since I met my baby! We weren’t able to be together but we talked a lot on the phone... definitely not as good as being there with him but better than nothing. I’ve had so much fun with him over the past month... just being around him or hearing his voice brightens my day. Yes, I think I’ve fallen in love!! It kills me that we can’t be together as much as we want, but right now it’s just not possible due to so many things… that problem may be solved later this month though and it can’t be solved soon enough!!

- The parents are slowly making progress. They’ve gotten to the point where I can go visit the bf without having to make up some elaborate plan. My dad actually seems to be further along than my mom. I get a lecture from her every time I go, but my dad just wants to know when I’ll be home and that’s usually it. Both seem to have taken a sort of I-don’t-care-anymore attitude with me which – to be completely honest – doesn’t bother me in the least bit. Hopefully, I will be able to move in with the bf this month… and they’ll be left all alone after having a full house for over 20 years. What will they do?

Yes, all of this has driven a wedge in our relationship. All of the bullshit they’ve dumped on me and continue to do so (albeit in smaller amounts now) has done nothing but push me farther away and actually cause me to despise them at times. There’s still bucket loads of tension among us especially since my brother has completely moved out and I’m the only other human interaction available around the house most of the time. ‘It’ is never talked about until I go visit my baby and is never discussed after I get back home either. Oh well.

- Today was my last day of class!! Finals are next week. Another semester down! I’m almost half way through now and I’m finally starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel… it sho as hell lookin’ good too!

- And finally – when you’re out driving, be sure to look out for motorcycles too!


Lemuel said...

Glad to see the update. Been wondering about you and how things were going. As always, continued best wishes!

JoeL said...

Glad also to see the update.

Don't shut out your parents. They're still in shock. Still trying to understand and in their own way trying to accept it.

Be patient and give them time. Be the grown up when it comes to discussions on the subject.

Moving in with the first bf and only after a month. Just make sure. Don't use this as an escape. If it ends and you have to comeback it will only look foolish and they'll say you didn't think. Less credibility, less respect for you and your lifestyle.

Take care!

Have fun!

Be careful!

Thinking of you!

Lewis said...

Baby, tiny, small steps. You're in this for the long-term of your whole life....not short-term. Look back at even the last month. How far you've come, your parents have too. And things will continue to change. Daily, weekly, monthly, even over the coming years. Relax, keep it simple, keep it honest and true. Loving on you today......stay cool.

johnmichael said...

Hi, I'm glad to see that you are back, if only for a moment. I was wondering how you were doing.

You've taken a huge step! I'm so envious of you. You are starting to live life.

I agree with Joel. Take your time with all of this. Don't make any rash decisions. And be patient with your parents. You want them to be patient with you. Go with the golden rule--"treat others as you would like to be treated".

Daniel, the Guy in the Desert said...

Your folks may not understand, but they're not cutting you off, either. Hopefully, they'll get it after a while.
But love is grand, ain't it?