Thursday, May 31, 2007

Looking In The Rearview Mirror and Peering Into The Crystal Ball

My my, how much my life has changed in the past two months! Yesterday marked the bf and I’s two month anniversary. We did hit our first little bump in the road earlier this week (the deal with my parents has been a crater… the road still runs through it though!), but that’s been resolved and everything’s going great! Stayed the night with him last night and we had an absolute ball!!

Just two short months ago, my world was dull, boring, uneventful, and severely lacking in the love department. I barely even had a reason to get up in the morning. My life consisted of school and that was basically all. I spent most of my time dreaming of the life I wished I had. Now life is spicy!! Even though all the bullshit with my parents has stressed me out (and continues to), it’s been anything but boring and uneventful! It’s actually been a bit fun at times! hehe =) But most importantly, I’m in love!! And that person I’m in love with is the sweetest and greatest guy I think I could ever find! I no longer dream of what could be… I’m living that life I used to dream about and I am so happy!

As for the future, things are being done to pave the way for me to move out of my parents’ house and in with the bf. The surprising part is who’s doing the paving – my parents. You see, I think they’ve finally realized that it will happen eventually no matter what they do, so they proposed something to me – sell my truck, pay off my car loan with the money from the truck, and transfer the car into my name. What would this mean? Well first of all, they couldn’t hold the car over my head any longer or take it away from me if I did move out… legally, it would be all mine. But it would also mean higher insurance. At the same time though, there would no longer be any loan payments, so they sort of offset each other.

So who knows what might happen. I would love to move in with the bf though. Then, we could slow down and be freer to do what we want. As it is now, it feels like we have to cram things into the short time we have together (even though it’s gotten to the point where I’m with him – or at least at his place – about as much as I’m at home) and put off certain things because “you have to go home tomorrow.”

Why haven’t I already moved in with him? He doesn’t want me to that’s why. But wait just a second before you start thinking bad things! There is a reason… and a good reason. He doesn’t want me to move in until things have been smoothed over with my parents. We had a long, heartfelt talk about this last Saturday. That may sound harsh or insensitive to some, but it showed me just how much he loves me and cares about me, my future and our future. I had never really thought of it this way, but he said moving in with him at this point would only be running from the problem, not solving it. That it needs to be dealt with so it doesn’t come up later – most likely even worst than it is now – and cause problems for the both of us. Very true and very good advice. The conversation we had was actually extremely sweet and seem to come straight from his heart. He did say though that if they kicked me out for whatever reason in the meantime I would always have a place with him. The good part of all of this – my parents have made leaps and bounds in just the last few weeks. They’ve stopped trying to break us up… they even admitted for the first time that the bf and I were dating!! =)


Lewis said...

You are spot on when you talk about how far things have come. Wasn't it just yesterday that you weren't even out? My oh my. Be careful, my friend. Take it slowly, carefully, and keep your eyes and heart open. I agree with him that running from problems won't solve them. Very very proud of you!

Lemuel said...

I am so happy for you! I hope it all continues to progress.

One topic that I have not heard you address is your schooling. As one who worked his way through college and who put two sons and a wife through college, I cannot help but wonder how it will all be cared for (financed) for you. Have you worked that through?

Daniel, the Guy in the Desert said...

I'm so glad that your folks are dealing with the changes in your life, in as constructive a way as they can.
The BF sounds like a super level headed guy. That's awesome, too.
I think Lemuel has a good point about schooling, as well. It will pay to make sure your feet are still firmly on the ground, even while you're enjoying life in the clouds.
You're doing great, buddy!

Palm Springs Savant said...

hey there...good going. hope things come together for ya now. Just wanted to say hi

Red Bricks said...

good for ya'll

i hope all works out well


john said...

Very proud of you!!
I wish I were at that point in my life.
Just protect your heart!

dbv said...

wow, i haven't been by in a while and will have to go back and catch up...

Red Bricks said...

did u fall off the earth up there in north la

Brad said...

Alright, Sly D, I'm worried about you. Stop in and say hi!